MY NAME IS SANSAN!

i want to be happy girl..where i get your kisses and hugs everyday..

i don't wanna be a sad girl...crying and missing you everyday....

and i don't wanna be a lonely girl living without you....

and i defintely hope you are not playing with my heart...i really love you and i really do please don't tell me you promise you won't leave me but get sick of me in a year time is sad to hear that you know...i here swear that i won't leave you...i want it to be a

i hope you know but if you want to leave me and follow another..its your decision as long as you are happy it shall be great enough just hope that you won't lie to me for loving me

i really love you!!seriously i love you.....

to mom: mummy stop being so unreasonable..yes i lied i was out with boyfriend but i denied i said friends

and you always believe me but now why? i usually come home real late even without a boyfriend like now what.remember when i was secondery 2 or 3 i always come home in the morning and you don't even utter a single word but now you change you became so .....i don't know how to say but can you just let go and give me some freedom stop threathening me and saying that if i don't come home you will throw me out you will not let me in you will throw my clothes you will not give me money you will stop caring for me you will not buy things for me and you will find a spy to spy on me that's ridiculous mom....you just make me have the feelings to dislike you...i know you care for me you love me even though i have been wasting lots of your money on lots of things i am sorry but i know you need someone to accompany you but i need too you are a wife and you have a husband you should call you and ask him to accompany you always stop being scared of dad i know he is very vulgar and violent he willl go really crazy when it comes to scolding and all but you are his wife he chose you because he love you and you too you should communicate better with him and stop him from all those (.....) i think you should know...and mom stop keeping everything inside of you let it out and share with your friends or me and dad plus church and please for goodness sake stop vending your anger on me please is like so unfair can you even think why i am always out because you both got no time for me you are busy and so does dad me ? nothing to do watch tv eat com....no siblings what i will go crazy you know that's why i love to hang out and give me the time please i hate time limits is like really fuck man mummy i hate it...mummy i love you but please give me some personal space and freedom please i hate tight controls...i promise you not to always hang out late please stop being so ba dao....thank you and love you

okay basically today wad -'- went to school and got caught for hair and everything went to buy hairdye then go camz house dye along with esther then dyed already went back school sian 4periods of e.maths can die man then went to her house again then went to rp buy things then ira's house then meet baby then go yishun eat then cab home sorry baby today so rush.....u know why.......i am sorry i cannot spend more time with you but please don't leave me cause i truly love you eh if you leave me is like ....... living in a world myself:( hope you won't leave me and get sick of me....and i know i very small gas but its really me eh i really cannot get over that seriously!!sorry for the attitude just now forgive me and love me muacks love you

okay going to bed now...

nightes!!!!